Bye bye Mumbai..

So finally after a few sleepless nights and loads of anxiety, I am going to join Google Bangalore :) What a relief !!! Really can't express this feeling in words.. Now that it is a 'bye-bye' to Mumbai it is a mixed emotion.. It's not that I didn't like the city.. it has a unique culture of love, acceptance and a lot of positive energy. I always felt at home here although I had no relatives here. Most Mumbaikers are strugglers in some way but they are always happy and helping others in their struggle.. The closeness to the sea is the best thing.. however stressed out you maybe but if you spend some time near the sea, you are relaxed as if the waves have taken all your problems away... a very soothing feeling.. a friend once said "the sea waves make such a noise but still everything is so calm here" I really love that thought..
But you know I was kindof tired of the city...especially the struggle part of it.. the crude nature of Mumbai takes a lot of effort from a North Indian to get settled.. The area where I was living is Malad West which ;ies in the Western suburbs. Unlike the plush Bandra, Worli etc this place was quite 'small town' type and I was having a hard time coping up with the kachra, smell, traffic and pollution.
So that is why mixed feelings.. today is my last day here and I'm looking forward to my new destination: Bangalore :) 

Last day @ MS

It is my last day at MS today. I don't understand what I should be doing today, first job, first resignation. I am also thinkign whether this was the best thing to do.. what happens if I don't get a good job ever in my life..I have only applied to startups and 1 big company.. haven't got the results yet.. really anxious as to what will happen!

I met so many people today.. I'm feelign as if I'm leaving my comfort zone.. was it really neccessary.. aisa to nahi hai ki I was just bored.. and if I was is it that I got bored too soon or something ? I really don't know.. all these questions are crossing my mind

Makai Wankam

Something I just remembered while sitting in office, thought I would post it

I had a Hungarian teammate, Gabor. When I had just joined the team, I had to ask something from him. This was going to be our first interaction. So just before calling him, I jammed him saying that I'll be calling you just now. He replied "Makai Wankam" and I was like totally confused. I said "sorry I am from India, donno any Hungarian" and he told me this is not Hungarian, this is Tamil and he was shocked being in India I don't know Indian language. Then I told him India has too many languages and I know only 1 - Hindi.

Destiny ?

Earlier I never used to believe in destiny. All the things related to it like palmistry, astrology etc were just any other fun-activity for me. I never understood the statements people used to make like 'everything is written' and 'we are just puppets in His hand' or 'we are just characters of a well-written play'. But now I have started believing in destiny, and in fact quite strongly. There have been times when looking at the events, I felt that this was bound to happen, this way or the other. There was no escape. Things seem to fit like a jigsaw puzzle.
I have started believing that everything is written but not exactly liek that. I don't think that our lives are written like a story or a play. I believe that our life is drawn like a flowchart. Each decision of ours is a conditional box which asks a question and has multiple outputs. Depending on the decision we make, we step over to the next event in our life. So in a way we shape our own destiny.. but then there is a question in my mind whether our decisions are also written ?